I am super excited today. Why? Well, I made the decision that if my PET scan (scheduled for sometime after Christmas) goes well and no cancer is found…I am going to quit Chemo. I have really just had enough and more than anything I just want a normal life back! Of course I seem super resolved about that now but I am sure my Doctor will have more then a few words to share on the matter. Some of my family members would not be supportive either. I hope I can stick to my guns.

If the test comes back with results that are not so good…well then I guess I will have to start over with the Chemo. If there is cancer in my lungs the Chemo cocktail will be even harsher and I would likely have to radiation as well. Please everyone pray that it comes back clean!

But back to being hopeful. The thing I am most excited about is the fact that I have arranged a barter in the hope that everything works the way I want it to. I would be bartering for an all expenses paid membership to my favorite ladies gym and day spa. So that means I could go back to water aerobics, belly dancing, and pilates 3-4 times a week and onsite daycare for my three kids would be included.

I am so excited I can barley stand it. I am excited and nervous. I hope I am not just setting myself up for disappointment but I can’t help the fact that I want my life back…I need this cancer chapter of my life to be over…let’s just hope it is.